Where I Belong - R.V.Elliott

Chapter 11 

Standing in my room I stared at my reflection in my floor length mirror. Pulling my hoodie up I gently ran my finger tips over my bruised ribs. Hissing slightly I pulled it back down trying to get the events of what happened tonight out of my head. 

I was almost raped. Raped by a guy that I thought was a good guy. A guy that helped people in need. How does one get over that? Now I had to up and leave my life because of some pathetic, disgusting human being that thought raping woman was okay. A group of bikers thought it was acceptable to do this to me all because of who my dad is. 

I had agreed to become Blazes old lady. What did I know about him apart from how he's been watching me for 8 years and his name. If that's even his real name. Heck I don't even know what age he is. Was I making the right decision? 

What if the hospital can't transfer me? Rubbing a hand over my face I rubbed at my tired eyes. I needed sleep but the fear wouldn't let me. Scared to sleep in my own home. Scared to close my eyes because when I do all I see is his face. 

Walking to my wardrobe I opened it and pulled my suitcase from the bottom. I guess I didn't have a choice about leaving. Whether I liked it or not I knew Blaze would drag me out of here kicking and screaming. 

Placing my suitcase on my bed I opened it. Guess I better start now, I had no idea why the guys were out here so I had no idea when they needed to be back. Thinking about going back to that place didn't sit well with me. I didn't fit in the first time I was there. Whats to say this time will be any different. 

Walking into my bathroom I turned the shower on. Giving it time to heat up I went back to my room and raked for an outfit. Deciding on light denim skinny jeans I paired them with a simply red top and my black leather jacket. 

Setting them out on the bed I escaped to my bathroom and began to undress. I still felt dirty, my skin still crawling with his scent. Feeling the vomit in the back of my throat I bent over the toilet and spewed my insides out. Wiping my mouth with the sleeve of my hoodie I pulled it off along with my jammie top. 

Wiping the sweat from my fore head I glance at my naked body in the mirror. My blond hair lay sprawled over both my breast tickling my now swollen ribs. With the 

force he kicked me with I wasn't sure if they were broken or not. 

Cock tease. 

The words still played over in my head. Was I a cock tease? Did I give every guy I came into contact with the wrong idea? Giving myself another once over I slipped into the shower and never got back out until my skin was red raw and hurting. I had scrubbed so hard I had started to bleed. 

Wrapping a towel around my body and hair I emerged from the bathroom and went straight over to my bed. Moving my clothes so they wouldn't get wet I lay right in the centre and placed my arm over my eyes. 

Will they be able to keep this from my dad? Were the three of them going to stay or would it just be Blaze? Had they went back and killed Adam?. So much questions were running through my head I wanted to scream. 

Grabbing the pillow from under my head I placed it over my face and screamed into it. Feeling the tears spring to my eyes I bit the pillow harder. What had I done for this to happen? He didn't rape me but that's what he intended to do. Would he have killed me after it? 

"Sweets you suitable?" Blaze asked from outside my door. 

I didn't want to talk to him right now. I just wanted to be alone in my room where no one could hurt me. 

"Go away Blaze" I sniffed removing the pillow from my face so I could wipe my eyes. 

Hearing my bedroom door open and close I sighed. "Please" I whispered not giving him a glance. 

How pathetic was I being? Every time he seen me I was crying. 

"Darlin' you okay?" He asked bending down at the side of my bed. 

"No" I whispered "I just want to be left alone" turning away from him I lay on my side as silent tears rolled down my cheeks. 

Feeling the bed dip it wasn't until his arm was wrapped around my waist that I knew what he had done. Pulling me closer to him he slide his hand up and under my rib cage causing me to wince in pain. He froze. 

"Let me see Ava" He said pulling his arm back so he wasn't touching me. 

"It's nothing" I mumbled not moving from my position. 

Hearing him curse under his breath I bit my lip and closed my eyes. He didn't need to see. Letting him see would only cause him to get angrier. Even though I didn't 

know him well I could read him like a book. 

Moving my arm back I grabbed hold of his and pulled it back over me. He made me feel safe, made me feel at ease when he was around. "They're not that bad. Just a little bruised" I croaked my throat suddenly feeling really dry. 

Slipping his other arm under me he turned me around so I was facing him, our noses nearly touching. "I want to see for myself that you're okay". Taking his hand he gently brushed the tears from my cheeks. 

"They're okay" I gave him a half hearted smile. They weren't okay but he didn't need to know that. 

Letting his arm drop he brushed his fingers tips down my side all the way to the slit of my towel. Giving it a little tug I felt it loosen. 

"Blaze don..". 

"Mother fucker" He growled his eyes not leaving my stomach. "A little bruised?" He snapped opening the towel wider so he could get a better look. "Ava..-" 

"I'm fine" I said pulling the towel back over my body and standing up. 

"You're not fine Ava" He growled "They need to get looked at". 

"I'm a doctor Blaze. Trust me they're fine" I snapped "Now get out so I can change". 

"I ain't going anywhere babe" He sneered glaring at me. 

Folding my arms under my chest I glared back at him "Get out or me being your old lady is not going to happen" I snapped knowing what I said would get to him. 

Watching his eyes fall into slits I knew I had hit a nerve. Maybe I was wrong about agreeing to be his old lady. Maybe I just wasn't thinking right and said it because I 

was scared. 

"Better watch that pretty little mouth of yours Ava. I won't always be as forgiven for what comes out of it". Searching through his cut he pulled out a cigarette and lit it 

up. 

"I'm not one of your whores Blaze. I won't kiss your ass like the rest of them" I snapped. 

Watching him I almost cried with the look he was giving me. I understood why everyone was afraid of him but I tried my hardest not to let my fear show. I felt safe with 

him but I still didn't trust him. 

"Maybe you should just leave" I said as I started pacing my room "Me saying I would be your old lady was a mistake" I gushed running a hand through my hair. 

"Bullshit" He yelled standing from my bed "Don't fucking lie to me Ava, don't treat me like a fucking idiot" He roared storming towards me. 

Grabbing my face in both hands he pulled me to him so our noses were touching "Don't fucking lie to me" He repeated looking directly into my eyes. 

My tears had already began to fall "I don't trust you" I cried "You haven't given me any reason to trust you. I know what your kind are like. A different girl each night. I won't let myself get hurt by you. I won't turn a blind eye" I sobbed pushing his hands away from me. "You want me so badly yet you can't keep it in your pants". 

"Ava do-.." 

"Just get out" I croaked cutting him off as I turned my back on him. 

Feeling his hand graze my shoulder I flinched away from him. "Learn to trust me sweets. I'd never hurt you and I ain't going anywhere". 

Ignoring him I kept my back to him, biting my lip to stop me from sobbing. Why did I feel such a strong connection to him? I've never felt this way about a guy in all my life. 

Hearing a knock on my bedroom door I wiped at my eyes before Tommy walked in. One look at his face and I knew something was wrong. 

"Prez got wind on what happened" Tommy spoke scratching the back of my head "We don't get her back in two days he's coming up". 

Feeling the color drain from my face I started pacing my room. If my dad comes up here everyone will find out who I am or more to the point whos daughter I am. My father was well known every where and not in a good way. 

"How does he know?" I asked looking back and fourth between Blaze and Tommy. 

"Sent me to check on you early darlin'. Came by here first and you weren't in. Only other place you could have been was the hospital". 

"That doesn't answer my question. How does he know?" 

"Didn't check in with him when we arrived. Never told me how he knows. He just said we've to bring you home" He said lighting up a cigarette. 

"Fuck" Blaze cursed causing me to look at him. "Get your shit ready. We're leaving tonight" he snapped before storming out the room. 

"I'm not leaving tonight" I whispered "I can't". I was screwed, if my dad comes up here he won't come alone. A gang of motorbikes riding through the town would draw attention. It would ruin my reputation. 

"Darlin' you don't really have a choice. VPs already pissed. He's a mean bastard as it is. Please just get some stuff together". Tommy left my room giving me a hopeful look before closing the door. 

How can he expect me to leave tonight? It would take us atleast 2 days to get there. I haven't even spoken with the hospital to see about a transfer. I wasn't going to NewYork without securing my job first. I had to get out of here without them knowing. 

Throwing the towel of my now dry body I quickly changed into clean clothes. Tying my hair into a messy bun I grabbed my bag searching through it for my keys. 

"Fuck" I cursed remembering I didn't drive here and that Blaze still had my car keys. 

"Ava you ready?" Blaze asked from outside my door. 

Taking a deep breath I walked to my door and opened it "I can't leave" I mumbled chewing on the inside of my mouth. I knew what was going to happen but he had to understand I had a life here, my job was here. 

"Like hell you can't Ava. Pack a bag and get that little ass downstairs. We have to leave now" He growled causing me to take a step back. 

"My job Blaze" I snapped folding my arms under my chest and glaring at him "I need to secure my job first. I can't just up and leave". 

"Downstairs Ava. 5 minutes" He snapped through clenched teeth. 

"Don't tell me wh-.." 

"Do you want him to come back and finish the job?" He snapped grabbing my face in two hands cutting me off "Do you want him to rape you this time? These guys don't play around Ava. Maybe if he did rape you you'd already be on the back of my bike by now" He roared spit landing on my face" 

Feeling the sting on the palm of my hand I glared at him through tears "Fuck you" I screamed turning my back on him and returning to my room. I can't believe he just 

said that. 

Slamming the door shut hard I let out the sob I was holding. Grabbing as much clothes as I could I through them into my suitcase. How could he say something like that? Zipping up my suitcase I pulled my leather jacket of the end on my bed and put it on. After putting on my boots I grabbed my suitcase and made my way downstairs. 

He was nothing but a cold hearted bastard and I wanted nothing more to do with him. I didn't ask for any of this, I didn't ask to be attacked and nearly raped. I didn't ask to be dragged into some rivalry with the MC and I certainly didn't ask to be Frances Mendez's daughter. 

Bumping my case down the stairs I placed it at the front door. He can think again if he thinks I'm riding with him. Walking into the livingroom I ignored them all and escaped to the kitchen. 

Grabbing my unfinished bottle of wine I grabbed my glass and filled it to the top. I had never felt so angry than what I feel right now. After what had almost happened tonight he speaks to me like that. Was it my fault? 

After taking a long drink I placed my glass on the table and went about getting what I needed. Standing on my tip toes I reached for my medical supplies only for an arm to snatch out infront of me and place it on the table. 

Turning round the glare fell onto my face instantly. I didn't want to see him heck I didn't want to be around him. Leaning back against the counter I took my glass and stared straight ahead ignoring him as if he wasn't here. 

"I didn't mean what I said" He groaned running a hand through his hair "I'm just-It's-.." 

"I really don't care" I snapped still not giving him a second glance. Finishing my wine I placed the glass in the sink, grabbed my supplies and attempted to get out of the 

kitchen. 

His arms were around my waist before I could blink. "Get off of me" I hissed struggling in his hold. "Seriously you're hurting me". 

Instantly his arms were gone letting me escape from him. Taking a deep breath I stopped in my tracks my back to him "I need my keys" I said not turning to look at 

him. 

"Keys for what darlin'?" Tommy asked causing my head to snap up in his direction. 

"My fucking car" I glared causing him to look at me surprised. "What?"I snapped placing my hands on my hips. 

"You're definitely Franko's daughter" He glared dropping his cigarette on my carpet and stubbing it out. 

"Don't fucking remind me. If I wasn't I wouldn't be caught up in all this bullshit, wouldn't have to leave my job and I certainly wouldn't have to put up with him. You better clean that up" I hissed pointing to his discarded cigarette end. Grabbing a hold of my case I walked out on them slamming the front door behind me. 

Chancing it I tried the boot of my car and almost jumped for joy when it opened, he didn't lock my car. Throwing it inside I walked to the drivers side and got in. How did my life end up like this? I guess I couldn't blame anyone but myself. I did want to meet my dad I just didn't expect to get dragged into club business. 

As a yawn escaped my mouth a tap on my window had me jumping out my seat. Great just who I wanted to see. My nosey freaking neighbor. Gritting my teeth I put on a fake smile and motioned for him to move back so I could open my door and get out. 

"Everything alright Jimmy?" I asked as he looked over at the motorbikes parked in my driveway. 

"Are you okay Ava?" He asked sounding worried. 

He wasn't worried at all. Nosey bugger just wanted the gossip. Always was one for watching me. 

"She's fine" Came a deep voice from behind me. 

"I wasn't asking yo-.." 

"I said she's fine. Now how about you fuck of back to your house and mind your damn business" Blaze growled. 

Swallowing hard I noticed the color drain from Jimmys face. There was no need to speak to him the way he did. Yes he was nosey but he was harmless. 

"I'm fine Jimmy" I smiled "They're friends of mine". Watching his eyes nearly pop out of there socket when I said the word friends made me want to smack myself. Not only was he nosey but he liked to spread gossip. 

"Going on a little trip?" His asked his eyes moving from me to Blaze and then to Tommy and Jared. 

"Going to-.." 

"Don't have time for this shit Ava. Mate I suggest you fuck off now before I lose my temper" Blaze growled as he walked closer causing Jimmy to take a step back. 

"You're a respectable citizen Ava. I would hate to see your reputation of a doctor be flushed away because of these thugs" He sneered before he fell to the ground blood pouring from his head.