Where I Belong - R.V.Elliott

Chapter 34 

Walking into the clubhouse I noticed the atmosphere was dull. No music, no chatter, no life. Everyone was in there own little world, captured by there own thoughts. My dad was no where to be seen and I was greatful for that. I didn't want to speak to him, I wasn't ready to forgive. What kind of man hits there own daughter? I don't even know why I asked Blaze to bring me here. Nothing good ever comes out of it. 

"Ava can we talk?" Blaze asked knocking me out of my thoughts. What could he possibly want to talk about? Apologise for hurting me yet again? Tell me how sorry he was and that it wouldn't happen again? I let my guard slip at the hospital by asking him to bring me here and I wasn't about to let that happen again. 

"Ava im-.." 

"Sorry?" I asked cutting him off "You seem to be saying that a lot to me these days Blaze. Now what exactly are you sorry for now?" I asked knowing the attention was now on us. "Sleeping with another girl? Hurting me yet again? Or is it just a sorry let me back into your panties?" I snapped. This is always what happens, we can never seem to have a conversation without arguing and that is why we should never be together. "Come on Blaze" I laughed watching his eyes fall into slits "What is it you're apologising for this time?". 

Taking a hold of my fore arm he dragged me out of ear shot and pulled me into my dads office slamming the door shut behind us. I would usually have reacted to him putting his hands on me, would have usually put up a fight kicking and screaming but by now I was used to it. " Did you bring me in here just to glare at me?" I asked 

"Why did you ask me to bring you here?" He snapped. That was a good question. Why did I ask him to bring me here? Frowning I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth. "Come on Ava. Why did you ask me to bring you here?" He yelled storming towards me. 

"I don't know" I snapped throwing my hands in the air. "I don't know" I whispered running a hand through my hair. There was something about Blaze. No matter what had happened or how much we fought and argued I always seem to go back to him. No matter how much I tried to fight it I couldn't. It was like a moth to a flame me being the moth I knew I was going to get burnt every time. 

"You gotta do better than that sweets". 

"What do you want me to say?" I roared my hands balling into fists "You think that if you apologise we'll just sweep what happened under the carpet? Pretend everything's okay?. I'm not one of those girls Blaze, you knew that the first time you layed eyes on me all those years ago" Catching my breath I closed my eyes and sighed. How much more was he going to put me through? More lies? More hurt? More tears? I didn't want to hurt anymore and I defiantly didn't want to cry. 

"They meant nothing" Moving towards me slightly I shook my head holding up my hand. I didn't want him near me. I didn't want him to touch me. "And I suppose the next one and the one after that will mean nothing too? I trusted you more than any other guy and you broke that. I gave you my virginity god". Already feeling the tears I tried blinking them away. 

"Sweets-".. 

"Don't call me that" I spat "We agreed you'd leave me alone if I told you I didn't want you yet you still tricked me into getting me on my own. What is it that you want from me?". 

"What the fuck is going on in here?" My dad roared bursting through the door. Quickly wiping my tears so he couldn't see them I caught the guilt in his eyes when they landed on my face. "Is someone going to tell me whats going on? You're giving the whole damn place a fucking show". 

"Nothing I was just leaving" I sa catching the concern in his eyes. Oh so now he's concerned. Wasn't that when he smacked the shit out of my face. 

"You are not going anywhere, sit" he yelled before turning and looking at Blaze "If you've hurt her I'll find out about it. Fucking sort your shit out the pair of you" Grunting he slammed the door shut behind him. Yeah and he was batshit crazy if he thought I was staying here. Walking towards the door I pulled the handle and cursed when it didn't open. He had locked the door, what was I some caged animal that needed sorting? 

"You have got to be kidding me" I groaned. So this is what he means by sorting our shit out? Locking us in a room together like a pair children. Letting out a sigh I went and sat on my dads chair. May as well get comfortable, god knows what time he'll let us out. Taking out my phone I fought back the smile when I saw I had a text from 

Nate. 

'Hope your okay! You need anything call me and if you don't call anyway :) P.S I have a bottle of La Crema chilling with your name on it. N x' 

Deciding now wasn't a good time to text him back I slipped my phone back into my pocket. I knew he was staring I could feel his eyes burning a hole in my face. 

"He must be doing something right" He said taking a seat at the opposite end of the table. Glancing up at him I could see the jealousy swimming in his eyes. "He's a good guy" I replied "Look I want to get out of here and you probably do to so let's just say we're cool, okay?" 

"Nah I think I'll keep you here all night" He smirked pulling a cigarette from his cut. "Your pretty boy with just have to wait until tomorrow". 

"Why are you doing this?" 

"You heard your old man. We need to sort our shit out and that's exactly what we're going to do" He said blowing out a gust of smoke. 

"And what exactly do we need to sort out?" I asked trying to keep my cool. I wanted nothing more than to knock the smug smile of his face. How could he not get that we didn't have anything to talk about? 

"Firstly, where you've been hiding and secondly who's the guy?" 

"You have got to be kidding me" I snapped gritting my teeth together. "None of that concerns you Blaze so you're wasting your time. If you actually have something to say then say it now if not I'll shout on my dad to let me out". 

"I want you to tell me why you asked me to bring you here tonight?" 

Squinting my eyes at him I said "I already told you I didn't know so yeah end of conversation" Pushing the chair back I stood heading towards the door. 

"Bullshit Ava" He laughed stopping me in my tracks. "Its one little question darlin' all you have to do is tell me the truth". 

Biting my lip I turned around and stormed towards him slamimg my hands on the table "Fine. I told you to bring me here because in that one little moment at the hospital I wanted you. I wanted you to bring me here and make love to me. I wanted you to make me come so hard I'd forget my own name. In that little moment I had the guy back I fell in love with" I roared fresh tears on the horizon "You wanted the truth well there you fucking have it" I croaked turning my back on him. Feeling his hand on my shoulder I shrugged it off. I didn't want anymore tears and yet here I was biting my lip so hard to stop the sob escaping. Spinning me around he pulled me into him wrapping his arms around my waist and fighting off my struggle. 

"You love me?" He whispered just as the door was unlocked and pushed open. Pulling out of his arms I stepped away from him putting some distance between us. Looking at him from the corner of my eye all I could see was shock. "Good the pair of you have kissed and made up. Ava your mom needs you get out of here". Not 

giving any of them another single glance I all but ran from the room. 

Sitting on the bed in nothing but a towel and fresh tears streaming down her face was how I found my mom. Rushing towards her I took her hand in mine." What happened?" I asked hoping my idiot of a dad had nothing to do with this. 

"I'm huge" She cried "Nothing fits, my back is killing me, I can't see my feet and now I'm peeing myself". 

Letting out a sigh of relief I fought back the laugh that was building in my throat. " Mom we can get you new clothes that's not a problem" I smiled taking a seat beside her and wiping away her tears. 

"I can't do nothing, can't take a bath without your dad because I get stuck. Not aloud to go anywhere in case I magically go into labour. I'm hormonal, stressed and carving washing powder. Don't ever get pregnant Ava". 

Washing powder? 

"Noted" I smiled moving so I could lay beside her. "Remember we used to do this all the time? You'd come home from work and we'd lay on my bed and talk about our day" 

"I remember it like it was yesterday A. Why don't we do that anymore?" She asked turning her head so she could look at me. "I do miss having my baby around. There's only so much men you can take and trust me your dad alone is alot to handle. You know he didn't mean to hit you don't you?". She said running her fingers gently over my cheek. It wasn't as sore now the swelling had went down and the bruising was fading. 

"He still hit me mom" I whispered as she placed her hand back down by her side. "He hit me so hard he broke my jaw. He might not have meant it but I'm not forgiving him just yet". 

"I'm not asking you to forgive him straight way Ava but he is your dad and he does love you. I hardly see you anymore A, all you do is work and if your not working your fighting with Blaze. What's the deal with him?" 

Letting out a humourless laugh I pulled my self up "He's an asshole. Listen I gotta go". Slipping of the bed she grabbed a hold of my wrist "Talk to me Ava, I want to know what's put the hurt in my baby's eyes. As hard as you try to hide it Ava I can see straight through it. Tell me whats going on with you". 

"Did dad every cheat on you?" I asked watching her frown. Letting my hand go she straightened her towel before standing up. "Not that I know of. A where is all this coming from?". 

"Doesn't it eat you up inside to know if he's sleeping with other girls? I mean he could be out there banging some pretty little chick while you're stuck here 7 months pregnant". 

"He wouldn't fucking dare" She barked her eyes falling into slits. "I'd have his balls removed if I ever found out differently. Has blaze?.." 

"Blaze can do what he wants for all I care. We are nothing, we never will be. Now I have to go I'll check in with you later" Placing a kiss on her cheek I left before she could say anything else. Walking into the bar area I took a seat when I heard it. 

"Franko" My mom roared 

Uh oh. Guess I got her thinking. 

Hearing the thud of his heavy boots he came storming round the corner and headed straight for his room. Dropping my gaze I winced when I heard the smack. Shit.. 

"What did you do?" Blaze asked leaning against the bar beside me. 

"I gave her something to think about" Hitting back the shot Tim had put on the bar for me I wiped my mouth and stood up. "Excuse me I have somewhere I need to be". Grabbing a hold of my wrist he spun me around and pulled my back up against his chest trapping me with his arm. "You don't tell a guy you love him and then expect to bail. I want some answers Ava". 

"Yeah well I want a penthouse in the upper east side but I guess we don't always get what we want". Throwing his arm of me I turned so I could face him. " I'm not playing anymore Blaze. I was serious when I told you I didn't want you and you promised to leave me alone. No more following me around, no more games, no more tricks. I don't want to fight with you anymore Blaze its to much hard work. Please move on because that's exactly what I'm doing" Leaning forward I stood on my tip toes and pressed a light kiss onto his cheek. 

Why was I suddenly feeling sad? This is what I wanted